forgiving you.

do you take joy
in watching me cry?
do you know how it feels
to be beaten up inside?

and you run to your mom
and tell her it isn't true
all of the evil things
she said about you

it must not be easy
to live with all the guilt
but it's even worse to live
inside these walls that i have built

and i trusted you so much
up until that day
i was only just a child
you took my innocence away

and now here i am
taking all the blame
never being able
to talk to you again

i just want you to know
how much i do hate you
but for some reason i find myself
here forgiving you.